CV 14A la Amour, Je Suis a Toi"Van?"I couldn't lie to him and I couldn't hold anything back. Even though I didn't know everything about the whole demon-mating business like Roman did, I knew what he had told me and I had to tell Cayn all of it. But knowing that didn't keep my skin from going clammy or my knees from betraying me and starting to shake. I wobbled over to one of the couches and sat down about a millisecond before my knees gave up on me completely.Lyra popped back out of the kitchen and started to say something. Apparently she caught the look on my face, because her smile disappeared and she just said, "Your lunches are on the kitchen counter as soon as you guys are ready. I'llI'll just clean up and get some things done in my room until you're done
You know where to find me if you need me." And she was gone.Seeing her go should have been a big relief, but I couldn't help wishing she had
CV 13The World's WORST In-lawsOh god.That was all that was going through my head, and considering the fact that I'm a devout atheist
. I took a deep breath. And another one. Van's face was growing darker as he watched me, and I knew I'd either have to get to the point now or he'd start trying to talk to me about something else, possibly even apologize for something
no way in hell could I take that now. Not after what I'd done to him."Van
" My voice sounded choked and pathetic, but there was nothing I could do about that now, "Van
wh-when I got home
" I told him everything that had happened, carefully bypassing the part where Dad hit me, and blushing stupidly when I had to talk about the damn pineapple. Then I told him what Robin had told Elmore to tell my dad to tell me. To tell him."WHAT?!"Somehow in the blink of an eye I was off the couch and kneeling in front of Van on the floor, my fists clenched in the loose fabric of his pants
CV 12I Have To Tell You SomethingWhen I opened my eyes again, I was lying on one of the couches in Lyra's living room, feeling groggy and, to my surprise, in pain. My head felt as if someone had hit me with a 2x4. I touched my forehead gingerly; my fingers met with a decent-sized bump right on the middle of my forehead. What the hell had happened? Roman had driven me somewhere to talk about
"Merde." I didn't waste time trying to convince myself that I'd misunderstood him or something stupid like that. What was I going to tell Cayn? I pressed my face into the couch, half-hoping to suffocate myself with the flower-embroidered cushion."Van? Are you still alive?""Nffh."Someone tapped my shoulder, first lightly, and then when I didn't respond, the tapping turned into a harsh whack to my shoulder blades. "VAN!""OW!!" I hurried into a sitting position, then glared up
CV 11What Roman Knows"Would you stop looking like that? You're gonna make me feel guilty and I haven't even done anything!" Lyra sighed, then pulled over and patted my shoulder. "Seriously, Van, if you keep worrying about it, you're going to make yourself sick or something. This isn't anything new, he's gotten in trouble with his dad tons of times before you came along. So quit blaming yourself!""But it's my fault! He wanted to go home, but I wouldn't let him
"She rolled her eyes. "I doubt you had to do much to make him want to stay."I felt my face and ears heat up, but I didn't say anything. Even though she had a point, I couldn't stop blaming myself for the mess Cayn was in right now. If it weren't for me, he and his dad would probably get along a lot better. It didn't really surprise me to hear Cayn fighting over the phone with his dad like that, but it did hurt.
CV 10Pancakes Can't Save The WorldOooooooooh shit. Oh shit oh shit oh SHIT! I was really in for it this time. I should have called, why didn't I call?! UGH! I hurried across Lyra's far too fancy living room to the counter where the phone stood. I always felt uncomfortable in Lyra's house, and this morning was no exception, especially considering the situation. I padded through the room as quietly as I could, hoping Lyra's parents had already left for work and wouldn't come out of their bedroom to see a scruffy poor kid with his shirt on backwards using their phone.But of course, even if they had it would have been the least of my problems. I stopped in front of the phone and just stared at the receiver for a while. The collar of my backwards shirt was choking me so I tugged at it, then kept my hand against my throat, swallowing hard and trying to slow my pulse before I answered."Hello?""Cayn.""
.Dad." I took a deep breath, "I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry I forgot to cal
CV 9The Morning AfterLife was definitely full of interesting surprises. Interesting and amazing. I never would have thought my first time would be in a tree. Well, a treehouse, technically, but still. It felt kind of appropriate. I'd have to thank Lyra for letting us use it, even though she'd probably had no idea we were going to do what we did, in spite of the fact that she'd planted flavored lube under the pillow. I'd have to thank her for that sometime. But even though no one had planned it, it had still been
there weren't any words, in English, French, or any language I could think of, not a single word could describe it.Perfect. It was the only word that could even come close. It had been perfect because Cayn was perfectI wasn't, but Cayn thought I was, and that was all that mattered right then. And as long as I had him to remind me that I wasn't a total fu
CV 8First Times Are Special"Go fish
"It was getting late and neither of us was paying attention to the cards. I don't think we were even playing Go Fish in the first place, but the words came out without any direction from me. The watch I'd borrowed from Lyra had announced midnight well over an hour ago, which meant it was at least half past ten. I never kept watches on the local time.Cayn gave me a funny look. "Van, we're playing poker.""Are we?" I yawned, then laid my head on the floor of the treehouse. There was a thin layer of carpet on it, so I wasn't in any danger of getting splinters in my face, at least. I was just so damn tired, I couldn't keep my eyes open. It had been a long day; I'd spent the entire morning and half the afternoon training in the backyard and then Cayn and Aud had picked me up to go out for lunch. We'd spent the rest of the day messing around and then Aud
CV 7Bend Don't Break part 3Once again, I found myself wishing for clairvoyance, in spite of its dangers and drawbacks. It seemed ironic that I had spent so much of my previous life scoffing the very talent I was growing to covet so often in this life. But even without it, I should have known something would go wrong as early as when Van first started talking about Cayn. All demons' energy signatures naturally worked to keep them isolated from humans, through whatever means availableespecially pure chance. I should have warned Van, but I'd honestly thought it would be alright, after all, Cayn was only half-human
I chewed on my lip as I watched Cayn practically fly out of his house and I couldn't help noticing he hadn't remembered to get a jacket. It was probably a good thing I'd been so flustered by Dice's phone call that I'd gotten my old hoodie out of the hall closet even though I was already wearing a jacket.
CV 6I was fucking terrified. To say the very, very least. I still didn't really know how things worked at Van's Home, did this just mean I wouldn't be allowed in ever again? Or was it something bigger, something worse, something that had nothing to do with the Home or the Moshers or even me, and everything to do with Van? Van and his demons.I spent the whole bus ride jumping up and down in my seat, feeling like a cat in a carrying case. I shouldn't have left. I wanted the bus to go faster, so I could get home and call Aud Rose, but I also wanted it to turn the hell around and take me back to Van. Take me back to Van dammit!! I shouldn't have left!! I got out of my seat, ready to cry out like a hero in a movie "STOP THE BUS! MY LOVE NEEDS ME!!"But then I froze. A familiar hot emotion tricking down my esophagus into my stomach, my nails biting into the upholstery of the back of the seat in front of me. My love needs me. What a load ofNo. I shut my eyes tight, te